getting a migraine and not being able to focus on anything.
taking a test.
doing only subpar on said test.
my teacher noticing I showed lots of improvement on my chem paper. those papers take me forever to write!
getting a call from a friend that is long since overdue
dinner at Bombay House
School is truly taking over my life right now and some days I just wish I could take a break to relax! Instead, I am bombarded with a new assignment due every day, more tests to study for, and not enough time to rejuvenate, sleep, or even go grocery shopping!
I had a great and slightly crazy weekend! We had Foster Care Camp at Aspen Grove and I got to spend all day Saturday playing with cute little kids! The rest of the weekend was full of homework (though I still did not get enough done!) and a little bit of fun at the Nickelcade including the awesomest game of Laser Tag!
The best part of the weekend was that I managed to stay mostly on track with my healthy eating. I didn't overeat a ton and I avoided most treats. I think I managed to succeed becaue I decided that my weigh-in day is going to be Mondays, and remembering that I want a good weight to show my success helps me stay strong on the weekends.
Starting Weight: 158 pounds
Current Weight: 154 pounds
Goal Weight: 140 pounds.
I also came up with some weight loss goals this weekend. just to keep me a little more motivated.
5 pounds: haircut and a new pair of shoes or $10 to spend on new music 10 pounds: a new gamecube game or movie 15 pounds: pedicure goal weight: a new wardrobe! and I will probably pig out on a ton of delicious foods that I have been wanting to have for so long!
For the next little while, this blog might become a weight loss blog. yes, I will still post fun stuff, but I need a way to track what I am doing and to keep me motivated. especially something to hold me accountable on the weekends.
I am going strong with 5 days of lots of fruits and veggies, 30 minutes of exercise at least 4 days a week, less treats (I am aiming for one a week), and an average of 1500 calories a day.
*farmer's market with Katie and Jen (where I ate the most delicious pizza of my life)
Katie and the most delicious pizza ever.
*Aspen Grove reunion dinner... so fun to see everyone!
*Katie's kindergarten party (circus animal cookies, coloring books, temporary tattoos, Disney games and music... it was pretty much the best!)
*Aspen Grove game nights.
*quoting this video every day (it's a guy in our FHE group after he got his wisdom teeth out getting a little too violent.)
this is the random photo of the day. my friend lives at Miller apartments and they have these super sweet dressers!
It might be hard for you to believe that I have time to have fun. I have anywhere from 24-30 hours of homework time a week, on top of 8 hours of work. Thankfully, in my Student Development class, we are learning good time management schedules and honestly it makes life so much better! I don't have to be stressed about having fun because I have scheduled hours for study time AND fun time!
goals this semester: eat healthy and exercise at least 3 days a week, strengthen my testimony, and keep my life balanced (as much as you can when you are going to school and working!). yep, that's pretty much it.
"But when it comes to our own prejudices and grievances, we too often
justify our anger as righteous and our judgment as reliable and only
appropriate. Though we cannot look into another’s heart, we assume that
we know a bad motive or even a bad person when we see one. We make
exceptions when it comes to our own bitterness because we feel that, in
our case, we have all the information we need to hold someone else in
contempt."
"May I add a footnote here? When the Lord requires that we forgive all
men, that includes forgiving ourselves. Sometimes, of all the people in
the world, the one who is the hardest to forgive—as well as perhaps the
one who is most in need of our forgiveness—is the person looking back at
us in the mirror."
"The more we allow the love of God to govern our minds and emotions—the
more we allow our love for our Heavenly Father to swell within our
hearts—the easier it is to love others with the pure love of Christ. As
we open our hearts to the glowing dawn of the love of God, the darkness
and cold of animosity and envy will eventually fade."
"Lay your burden at the Savior’s feet. Let go of judgment. Allow Christ’s Atonement to change and heal your heart. Love one another. Forgive one another."
-Dieter F. Utchdorf (The Merciful Obtain Mercy)
"First, I mention a signal which is basic and essential: believe.
Believe that you are a daughter of Heavenly Father, that He loves you,
and that you are here for a glorious purpose—to gain your eternal
salvation. Believe that remaining strong and faithful to the truths of
the gospel is of utmost importance. I testify that it is!"
"Each of us can be true for just one day—and then one more and then one
more after that—until we’ve lived a lifetime guided by the Spirit, a
lifetime close to the Lord, a lifetime of good deeds and righteousness.
The Savior promised, “Look unto me, and endure to the end, and ye shall
live; for unto him that endureth to the end will I give eternal life."
let's just say that I have a few REALLY hard classes this semester.
two words: Physical Chemistry.
I started the semester out so worried that I would not pass the class.
It was stressing me out so much that I needed to do something. so, I thought about what would happen if I failed the class. would it be a little hard? yes. Is it the end of the world? no. Even if I fail the class, it's not the end. I'm still a worthwhile person. There are still other options. and there is always help to ensure that I pass the class.
Today in one of my classes, we went over the concept of wholeness versus perfection. we talked about how we need to stop comparing ourselves to others, and try to change ourselves slowly. how we need to work our hardest, but not give up if we think we will fail. and so much more amazing things that made my day so much better. it only cemented my desire to give up my fear of failure. I already feel so much happier.
so, take a walk today. relax a little. If you don't control your stress now, then it will control you. once you are overwhelmed, life just seems so much harder.
I definitely been thrown in to a semester of chaos.
we don't have an ironing board, so all my clothes are wrinkly and I have nothing to wear.
I'm still not unpacked all the way and sometimes can't find the stuff I need.
I am already lost in my P-chem class.
I spent the first 3 days eating sandwiches and fruit. oh how I miss Aspen Grove.
and I am already spending all of my days and nights doing homework. on the second day!
and I have not even started work yet.
It's gonna be great once I get into a routine. but right now I just don't have a good schedule and everything is super chaotic. and I'm annoyed at the girls upstairs that put on super loud concerts every night. what are they doing with their lives?
haha really though life is quite good. I have super good roommates and I am doing so well at being productive in many parts of my life and that just feels amazing!
